On the edge of change

Everything seems so normal and I can hardly believe that the vision I had will come true in a matter of months. Everybody is going around their daily worries and hopes, being completely oblivious to the dangers to come. I don’t have much time and I need to prepare. I immediately decide I am going to my quiet place to seek for guidance. It is in the oasis I have found in the only green area in the middle of the capitol.

It is heavily guarded and I am sharping all my instincts and senses to be able to find my way around and stealthily go inside. A lavish growth of green, the smell of wet ground and the sound of flowing water makes me connect to my ancestors and they way they used to live, still having access to abundant nature.

I know this habitat has no predators anymore, all the big animals went instinct long time ago and everything is controlled and kept in balanced by artificial nanobots roaming freely. For this matter I need to focus on each atom in my body and go in a sort of fake desintigration phase so that I can fool the nanotbots from spotting me.

I make my way, diving deeper and deeper into the tangle of leaves, roots, and all sorts of plants. Once I reach the biggest tree standing tall in the middle of the mini jungle, I kneel down and embrace it with all my being. I need it’s guidance and support for all I am about to do. It’s roots are connected with all the plants still surviving in this oasis.

I sit down and focus on being one with the tree, feeling all the nutrients and information flowing through it’s roots and up until the remotes leaf. I feel the wind flowing and creating the rustling which now is speaking so loudly to me. Once more I know that I am welcomed and that the tree will shroud me and allow me to enter into my super conscious state.

If I am going to survive, I need to receive an answer as to how I might be able to face all that is going to happen. I let myself be guided by my breathing, releasing everything around me, inside of me, until I become nothing and all. Being in this place full of life, one of the rare places that still has nature unfolding freely, allows me to tune in to my natural state, to my origins. There I will find the answers I am looking for.

Soon enough I fall asleep, being on the bridge in between reality and fantasy, where I can lucid dream. This time I am dreaming my most dreadful nightmare, I was hoping I would have a different setting, nonetheless, I don’t have time to complain. I start running through all the bodies screaming in chaos and fear, trying to escape the overlord’s android troops. It is the first massacre we have ever lived, to reduce the overwhelming growth of population.

I am trying not to be gripped by fear, reminding myself that this is just a nightmare, and trying hard to visualise in my head, in my dream, the cave where I need to reach, to receive my answer. After some time, all my mental effort pays off and everything around me begins to dissipate like black smoke and reshapes itself until I begin to see the entry of the cave slowly being materialised. I am here, I am not far from receiving an answer. I take one last look before being completely engulfed by darkness, I know the person coming out of this cave will not be me.

I enter inside and everything is as I know it, this my sanctuary which allowed me to receive guidance and wisdom far beyond my comprehension. I trusted completely that this time too, I will know what I need to do. Shortly after I accommodate my eyes with the dark I start my ritual.

I blow gently hot air on the wet and cold walls of the cave until they start shinning slightly. They start becoming more and more iridescent as I continue guiding air from my lungs to bring them to life. All colours start to intertwine as the crystals wake up from their slumber, like snakes of different colours intermingling, moving incessantly beneath the crystals.

I lay with my back straight in the centre of the cave and reach my hands upwards as high as I can and I start with calm and patience, making large circular movements that shape the infinite sign to invoke infinite wisdom to be bestowed on me, showing me what I needed to do in order to survive. As I continue with these movements, small droplets of water start pouring down.

Then they become bigger and bigger, until they form into rivulets of water coming down my body. The abundance of water intensifies with each stroke of my hands, with each movement and thought of surrendering to a higher consciousness.

Soon enough a rich, dense, strong and cold waterfall comes pouring on me. I can sense it’s force but it does not move my body in any direction, what happens is that it stars entering my body, invading every single cell I have, running through me and into the ground, falling endlessly, and thus I become the waterfall.

I fall, and fall, and fall, into the abyss, the speed gets bigger and bigger and I am falling with so much force that at a certain point I feel the water going upwards, surpassing the ceiling of the cave, into the starry night sky, continuing to places my mind cannot reach. But it makes no matter, since I am no longer myself, I am the waterfall, reaching for the source. There is a moment where everything is suspended, there is no movement, everything just is.

And in this place and non place I receive what I came looking for. Soon after the waterfall starts falling back again at a dizzying speed with an incomprehensible force until all the water comes crashing down like a tidal wave on my body, from my head until the core of my body. I feel an immense muffled thud shuddering every single cell of my body and I come crashing down on the cave’s hard stones, with the knowledge inside of me.

I soon wake up with a massive headache and feeling my body sore, like it was ripped into a million of pieces and the put back up again. I stagger at first, finding my way through leaves and the jungle tangling around me, not before leaving a solemn kiss on the tree’s bark, it has stood beside me once more. I am feeling so unwell that the stomach roils with pain but I got no time to lose, I know what I need to do now and I need move fast.

The guards are still patrolling the artificially maintained oasis and this is my most vulnerable moment, I am not in my highest physical prowess and any wrong move could cost me my life, entering the oasis is punished by death. I don’t know how, but I manage to elude then and I carry on, choosing only side streets, this is not the time to run into trouble. The sun begins to rise and the colours of the sky and it’s beauty remind me why I still want to live, why I will do everything I need to survive!

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