Almost two weeks ago I was part of a sacred ceremony, having a profound experience of exploring and understanding who I am and who we all are for that matter.

Today I was walking in Lisbon, and at the train station I got down to I saw beautiful azulejos murals, I took my time to see them all, like an outdoor art gallery.

One of them could represent in images what I brought awareness to during this retreat and I find it easier to relate to this image to explain somehow what I experienced.

I realised that I identify myself with my body and mind, who I am was defined by my body and my thoughts.

First, I explored with my mind, writing in my journal, tapping into this self reflection which comes with every written word, with no censure.

Later in life I became aware of my body as well, started being more mindful, paying attention to it and this way I tought that I am coming back home to myself, where I coexist in my mind and my body.

And lastly, becoming more and more aware of my emotions, how my thoughts influence them and how I feel them in my body.

Becoming present and aware of my thoughts, feelings and sensations in my body helped me to position myself as an observer like the second circle in the image.

I am able to observe my mind and my body and thus to understand that I am not neither of them, that they are worthy and beautiful vehicles which help me experience this manifestation of life, but not who I am.

But if I am able to observe, then who is observing the observer? If I understand that I am an observer and not my mind and my body, then who is capable to see/understand this?

And then I reach the third circle, where I am not my body, nor my mind, I am not the observer knowing that I am not my body nor my mind, then who am I? I am something which cannot be described with words, cannot be explained. I simply am… I AM…

If I were to use some words, as limited as they might be, I would say that

I AM …life force in a human body.

I AM … endless, infinite counsciousness.

I AM … divine intelligence.

I AM … love.

I AM … harmony.

I AM … complete.

I AM … nothing and everything.

This makes me think of my favorite affirmations and actually the only ones I listen to.

There is so much more to explore and to understand, to feel and integrate, but the greatest joy is to be living this game of life, day after day, for as long as I am meant to.

Who are you?